Not me, not now. Look, I’ve had a difficult day today, it looks like its turning into a difficult week to be quite honest. I can’t do it right now, I’m sorry.

I said at the time (well, thought it) that you’d picked the wrong person. I didn’t think I had it in me, that I’d be able to find anything to say, cope with the pressure. But you would insist wouldn’t you? My objections just didn’t seem to register. Well, will you accept now that maybe I was right?

No. I didn’t think so. Why can’t you realise that I’m not cut out for this? How do you expect me to see through all this stuff to be able to find anything worth saying, or more importantly, worth hearing? Another time, when I’m feeling better, but not now. Please?

But don’t you want someone who knows what they’re doing, who can give themselves to it properly without all this worry and anguish?

I was afraid you might say that.

Ok. Here I am.

6 thoughts on “Doubts

  1. Yes, funny how all those arguments seem to fall on deaf ears, isn’t it? It’s not worth fighting it, you just have to give in and go with it. At least, that’s what I found.

  2. Did you get swallowed whole by a whale during that process or did you bypass that bit? Cos you’re doing better than some if you can reach the ‘here I am’ stage without the whale…

    Seriously though, you can do it. Feel free to ring for a chat at anytime,xx.

  3. if you need some skeptical (of topic, not author) but appreciative and friendly ears/eyes to see what you have, you know where i am lovely bear!

  4. I went through all that too…. and perhaps to my shame concluded that it was all too difficult. I regret it. I think my main error was not involving others in what I was doing, which made it easy to fizzle out. As you’ve involved us in what you’re doing, then it’s not just God that you’re answering too, but all of us as well!


    (Which is good in the long run, even if occasionally it will be irritating).

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