Yes I’ve been fairly rubbish at updating, yes lots of things have happened. And yes, right now, as much as there is more to life, I can’t help focussing on the fact that three weeks from tomorrow we will be getting married.
This is one year where I’m not looking back thinking about the things I want to change. I’m not sitting on the verge of the new year thinking what I will do differently or hoping to say goodbye to the bad parts of this year. That’s not to say there haven’t been down times and uncertainties, but that there isn’t anything I would wish away or want to forget.
I’m not very good at new years resolutions. To me, the idea of promising myself I will eat healthier, exercise more, pray more regularly or achieve everything I haven’t so far is both a recipe for letting myself down and something which doesn’t need to coincide with New Year. If I was going to be able to do any of those things I would, whether its January 1st or any other time of year! For me, the significance of the date is more to do with being able to look back at everything I’ve done, and look forward to what is to come. I like the idea of the origin of January coming from the god Janus, who looks both backward and forward, embracing the past and the future.
So tonight I will be looking at the past year and giving thanks. To the people who have shared it, to friends and family, new and old. At new life coming and those which have ended, at celebrations of great events and the mundane everyday-ness of normal life. To all of you, you know who you are, thank you. For being part of it all. And I will be looking forward to what will come. New adventures, a new family, and who knows what else? And right now, the wedding is the big thing on the horizon. Understandably, it is probably the biggest thing I have done in my life so far. And I’m so excited 😀
Anyway, before I get too carried away, I wish you all a very happy new year, for this evening and for the year to come. May it bring you all you need, that you will be able to look back at it this time next year with joy and thankfulness.
With thanks for 2010, and looking forward to everything 2011 will bring.